[u]gly

i'm changed, to be the thing i never thinking of... the bad the good, it doesn't matter to me anymore. feeling boring day after day with smile in my face... it's the joke, right? yeah, fucking joke!... the life without purpose, don't have any reason to live, so should i suicide...(just kidding :))...
should i call some friends and handing out, but honestly i don't know who i should called, hate to hearing "i'm sorry..." , it's make me more shy and feeling alone.
maybe it is the time people must overcome before they grow up, whatever i don't no how to yet!
and maybe music is the best for me that time.